WHAT DID I ACHIEVE? (and other thoughts on New years Resolutions and self improvement)

WHAT DID I ACHIEVE?

(and other thoughts on New years Resolutions

and self improvement)

When I said that I had achieved nothing tangible

I sensed a sort of sadness in you

But what I meant was…

there was nothing obvious

that would show you how far Id actually traveled

what new revelations I'd seen…

Secrets that the universe chose to show me,

little me, insignificant me

I wasn’t out there chasing fame or notoriety

It was during cold days of hibernation

Where the marination

of thoughts and ideas

Came into my being

The blinkers taken off

I soon came to realize 
that Id traveled an eternity

in the duration of the entire year

Increments became paradigm shifts ‘

(of awareness)

I learned how to access

information that is contained
in~ordinate realms

I had my eyes opened to both challenge and wonder

that would leave most so completely out of breath

Not to mention 
out of their depth

The mental tenacity it takes to sort

through uncomfortable thoughts

( about self)

I achieve in one year

more than I’d ever thought possible

through my many earth cycles

no wonder I feel so tired all the time!!

From within my core

I’ve rearranged atoms

(and alternate universes)

to which I am intrinsically aligned

I’ve seen ugly truths that keep me awake at night

breaking down previously held and cherished beliefs

dots that were joined,

new terms coined

now need to be sorted and stored

filed... for future reference

And yet

to your eyes,

I’m still the same ol’ me

But tell me...how does one measure their 

DIVIN~i~TEE ?

© Teresa / Divinia 12^th January 2015

song used - The Uncarved block by Hibernation