FRAGILE STATE

 FRAGILE STATE

An emotional wreckage

Derailed  from my good intentions

Woke up crying again

But still have to put on a brave face

Nah

It’s just so much easier to stay in and hide

Stop listening to all the BS and the lies

My head is aching

My teeth echo in my face

Words get stuck in my throat

But you’d never know

I keep on smiling through the pain

Yet in my mind

Im on an unbridled journey

Travelling back in time

Processing remnants of the past

While simultaneously keeping up appearances

Just to make your life easier

You just never know

What someone is going through

Accumulated blows eventually wear you down

Not once

Not twice

It could come from the most unexpected place

But it was the one seemingly insidious comment

That broke the horse’s back.

An attack

On my fragility

No longer can I keep up with the onslaught of hostility

Wading through the deep undercurrent of 

blame

and

shame

I’m so tired

EFFLORESCENCE

Efflorescence

The absoluteness of time dissipates

to become a volatil~i~Tee

A violation of the laws of relativ~i~Tee

As I ride on the nostalgic memory of a sweet aroma

Infused by the enfleurage of a jasmine bloom

derived from the depths of my most subliminal senses

I create a new portal to perception

Absoluteness gives way to a liquid~i~Tee
Swirling through a super~fluid viscoc~i~Tee

an emanation from point zero Grav~i~Tee

as my mind crystallizes into a residual foam

a place where my thoughts effleurage your soul

We mingle in an effusive space

a place where I often see your beautiful face

free from the confines of my earthly existence

My worries no longer have a hold on me

no longer do they define me

I am a law unto my own observations

in those moments in time shared with you

the memories of which span to the blossoming of creation

Im riding a wave of light

and suddenly

everything stands still.

DEFINITION OF EFFLORESCENCE

(c) Teresa / Divinia 2nd May 2014 
The top picture was from http://aegiandyad.deviantart.com/art/Jasmine-Flower-Stock-284157210
second picture was taken by me

THE NIGHTFIRE

THE NIGHTFIRE

(آتش)

A fragile beauty that for so long you tried to hide

For fear of falling into yet another web of lies

With nothing left to hold on to

What you didn’t know

Is that I had already seen

the myriad of colours within your soul

your unique configuration and callings

your raw humanness

imbued with a burning fire

your unspoken longings

and deepest desires

It made me love you even more

And then there are those days

where I don't even know who you are.

And yet,

we continue to strive

keeping the flame alive

for we now know that the safety net

which was once so full of holes is

piece by piece

being woven back together

you and I will rise

from the Nightfire

Atesh
Persian (آتش) "fire, flames"

(c) Teresa / Divinia

26th April 2014